A Small Rant

I am tired.

I am tired of worrying about my husband being sick. It's been 19 months of almost constant pain & worry. I want the doctors to understand the urgency & importance of how long this has been going on & figure out what is wrong. I'm not asking for a miracle cure; I know they don't exist. But is it too much to ask to know what is wrong after 19 months, 4 neurologists, 1 pain specialist & 1 neurosurgeon? Really is that too much?

I am tired of people treating me like I can not do anything at work. And yet I am the one they turn to when they have questions. If I am not good enough to do anything, why am I relied on to explain?

I am tired of being told that anyone can do my job. Or that they can learn to do any job there is. This is simply not true. Yes, you can learn how to use the programs I use. You can learn how to communicate changes with a factory. You can even learn how to sew & might even be able to learn how to make a pattern. But unless you are good at visualizing how a flat pattern shape is sewn together to make a garment. And can make it so that it fits. Then you can not do my job as well as I can. This is not a skill that you learn but part of my personality. It is just something I am able to do.

I am smart enough I could be a lawyer; I even took a PLR class & found it interesting. But I am not good at being able to stand up in front of people & speaking off the top of my head. So I wouldn't be a good lawyer. No one is good at everything. You may be good at everything you try, but you are not good at everything. So don't insult people by telling them you can do any job.

I am tired of working to make everyone's life easier, but not having the courtesy paid back to me. What's the point? I work harder to make your life easier, but what do you do for me?

So it isn't a small rant, more like a medium one. You is not directed at anyone in particular. So please do not take offense in reading.